Maggie Nelson: “I can remember a time when I took Henry James’s advice—“Try to be one of the people on whom nothing is lost!”—deeply to heart. I think I was then imagining that the net effect of becoming one of those people would always be one of accretion. Whereas if you truly become someone on whom nothing is lost, then loss will not be lost upon you, either.
This is a beautiful article Ava but I find myself to be resonating more with your earlier self which was more anxious and craving of a better life.
I have an overwhelming desire to fill every second of my day with something productive and “useful” because it makes me feel closer to an idealized self.
The useless days feel like moving away from the ideal by just squashing time. Do you think it’s natural to feel this way for someone at a different place in life? And that this angst of urgency has its value because it forces growth?
This is a beautiful article Ava but I find myself to be resonating more with your earlier self which was more anxious and craving of a better life.
I have an overwhelming desire to fill every second of my day with something productive and “useful” because it makes me feel closer to an idealized self.
The useless days feel like moving away from the ideal by just squashing time. Do you think it’s natural to feel this way for someone at a different place in life? And that this angst of urgency has its value because it forces growth?
This is awesome. Writing on your thoughts about yourself to help millions in your situation
This was a beautiful read and it really resonated with me, thank you for sharing.
This resonates with me so deeply. Thank you
This is beautiful, Ava. I'm jealous :)
As a first-time reader, I'm happy, and looking forward to future articles.